I’m back to share my story

When laying in bed in the wea hours I see that my son is typing me a message on messenger, I almost fell out of bed. What I would read would have me almost hysterical, crying so intensely, shaking the message would tell me that we cut you out of our lives because you were sick, that would be mentally sick, fucking oath my husband of 18 yrs tells me he can’t Live with me anymore which was code for sorry I’ve been fucking someone else for the last five years I’m moving on, I’ll backtrack 10 years and can say honestly this fucking had been going on for even longer than that. My kids at the time were 16, 13,11, what knowledge with they have on a person having a breakdown, absolutely zero and give and I was the only parent for them ever, I can hear my ex husband say ” your mothers crazy” Oh one day I’ll show the bastard crazy don’t you worry about that it’s a promise to myself.

He then went on to say how amazing the stepmother is how much is like his father and that I would hate that you will know I don’t, he has now joined the ROYAL AUSTRALIAN NAVY He’s a man but They still hate me because I fell apart.

Children don’t do this on their own accord, Dean Anthony Williams and Sharon Williams of kellyville NSW you should be disgusted…. And me I’ll survive what choice do I have those that know me know I’m no quitter and I not only want to see karma wipe the smug look from its face as per recent photo, and or the day one may need bone marrow or a kidney…..

Goodbye to my 3 little ducks

8 years I’ve held on I can’t hold on anymore . I will never understand why. I will never understand why they hate me so much . Messages from my son were heartbreaking, cruel, and one side of the story they have been molded into hatred. I don’t know what’s left for me now or where I go to now but to my 3 beautiful children I say goodbye mummy will leave you alone and I wish you all the best in life. To my ex husband who lives the perfect life erasing me from my children I thank you for destroying me I would never of done this to you. After 18 years of marriage you left me with a death sentence.

I LOVED THEM THEN, I LOVE THEM NOW, I SHALL LOVE THEM FOR ALL ETERNITY

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Proudest Mum in the world… Stars have aligned

I can say proudly that my family have 4 generations of military service including the loss of my fathers uncle as a POW in Changi. My dads service in the Vietnam War, My grand father in the Second World War. I myself served in the Royal Australian Navy.

This week my second born child ZACHARY DEAN WILLIAMS will start his Service with the Royal Australian Navy basic training facility at HMAS CERBERUS.

I can tell you my father is watching from above because I can feel it this young man and him had a bond like no other.

I wish I could tell him all of this but as an alienated parent I can only hope the word gets through. The stars you ask well coincidentally when he joins it will be 30 years to the day that his mum then 17 joined the military.

I LOVE YOU SON, PROUD OF

ALONE, LONELY What’s worse?

I’ve been alone since I was 21 that’s when I got married that went for 17 years,yes still alone, and the last 8 years single by choice and yes you guessed it alone. But now because of some very cruel people I live with SOCIAL ANXIETY how lucky am I. I rarely go out isolation becomes your friend. Pre marriage I was always a very extroverted woman this part of my personality only seen by family and old friends. I do often laugh at my own jokes lol.

Lonely, sometimes sure but my marriage mentally abusive, the loss of my children to PARENTAL ALIENATION SYNDROME, I knew it would be a long period of time before I even felt my heart beating since it was ripped from my chest the pain still lingers and I guess it always will.

But I know this man and he would be the man that saw me from the inside out this man cared enough and saved my life, he knows how I feel I just blurted it out recently then I started to feel that pain again he left it a couple of weeks he preceded to tell me he has cancer. What did I do to deserve no happiness in my life, he doesn’t want me wasting my time but maybe time is all we have. I think about him often and he is in my heart like it or not so I don’t believe I’m lonely anymore.